i looked up the meaning in the dictionary and this is what it said:
To surge over and submerge; engulf: waves overwhelming the rocky shoreline.
To defeat completely and decisively:
To affect deeply in mind or emotion:
To present with an excessive amount:
I think the last two meanings hit the nail on the head for describing how I feel or have felt this year.
Overwhelmed.
I know life is not supposed to be easy. I know it's filled with lots of ups and downs. However, it just seems this year I have had my share of lots of downs, way downs, way way downs. Sprinkled with ups.
I know I have a lot to be grateful for this year. I really do try to see the positive in most things. And I have do believe that it's normal to feel this overwhelmed. We all feel overwhelmed at times.
I'm overwhelmed emotionally. I would consider myself a very happy, joyful, loving, compassionate, and passionate person. I love deeply. So, I guess it's expected that when my head and heart have had some tough blows I feel overwhelmed. I feel like at any moment I could cry and I do..... And I have been crying a lot lately. I can't remember a time when I ever cried this much. And, I am tired of crying. I am overwhelemd by emotion.
I am ready to feel joy. Pure joy. Only joy. Happy heart joy. Smile inducing joy. Uninterrupted joy!
I have been on a yo yo of emotions this year. Up down, up down. I am ready to cut the cord. I don't want to feel down anymore (well, at least for awhile anyway).
I am overwhelmed....
